She needed it more... than me !

I see you, and that a beginning,
I ain’t that good, so I can’t sing,
I have my words, that can talk,
I would love, for that small walk !

I would never wanna hurt you,
I would best try to be me, true,
I ain’t one jerk, one on facebook,
I lost myself on that very first look !

I may sound crazy, crazy as ever,
I cannot lie, I simpy can’t, never,
I’d like to see that smile on you,
I see a picture, I don’t get a clue !

I may sound dumb, not so smart,
I have to play, just my own part,
I must tell you, you are, so nice,
I personally, hate to tell all lies !

I would fly from here, to see you,
I’d cause no trouble, I swear, true,
I held myself back, for all of you,
I’d dress best, if you prefer blue!

I know it is so hard, to trust one,
I am my parent’s only third son,
I mean no harm, nor any trouble,
If you say yes, am on the double !

I wish, I could just see you smile,
I wish, I could come all that mile,
I know, it’s a cruel, world there,
I can do right things, I can dare!

I wish, you were on my friend list,
I wish, you come out of the mist,
I am just fine, if you want to shout,
I’d all game, to clear your doubt,

I’d be really glad, to see you once,
I can take a bullet from your guns,
I just need one, just once chance,
I wish to have, to show my stance,

I am naughty, but not all that bad,
I am really sorry, if you are so sad,
I am sure, you got my every clue,
I wish to talk, between me and you !

..... its got to end..

This could not have gone weird,
Of course, am not out with beard,
It did throw me down, from the top,
Good, I did nothing, to attract the cop,

Life now here has been just plain,
Nothing in life, seems prime or main,
In the streets of New York, with a coke,
Everything seemed like one practical joke,

Have just tried hard to come over it,
I could rest myself being so very unfit,
Well, it should’ve not end, never this way,
All I’ve been doing is walk and simply stray,

Life goes on and on, and must move,
I’ve nothing left in me nothing to prove,
Cannot sit and cry, simply over my losses,
Even it looks my own blood kitchen sauces,

Everything I munch, every that I eat,
Everything’s lost its taste, not so sweet,
Life is just around the corner, and move on,
Its been quite a while, I haven’t seen the dawn,

I thought I was never this so weak,
I thought I was invincible and unique,
Never thought it might go wrong this way,
There has been nights, not even one nice day,

I can neither speak, not tell anyone,
All is now, said and is extremely done,
Its no longer a decision, taken by the two,
She refuses, and I am dumb to take any clue,

They say time will be the good healer,
This rips my heart out slowly like a peeler,
She wouldn’t agree, she would want to stay,
It can be this way, today and every other day,

I cannot pretend to be her good friend,
One small heart , does not run with trend,
And Yet so very stupid, yet so very unpractical,
Life cannot be so very cruel, and it cannot be dull,

How do I tell her, that I have loved her,
How do I tell her, I am a fool, lost in a slur,
How do I tell her, I cannot move on, another,
How do I tell her, or even tell her brother ?

I’d rather be hanged, a few seconds to go,
Close my eyes and think, and I cannot let go,
The rope around my neck, tightening so faster,
Release me from this pain, sooner, my master….

It’s has to be good for one, and just one,
I cannot do it again, for I loved, yet had fun,
There was nothing for me to hide, believe me,
I would have told you, why would I hide it, honey?

Well, its gone ahead, way ahead, for now,
Words like honesty, faith, love, don’t fit now,
I wish, you find your right man, in days to come,
I also pray, this doesn’t happen, will remain numb,

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THE END

It all finally ends here, once and for all,
Just over a message, not even one call,
Never be ready, never ever be the one,
Well, much harder than under the sun,

Life goes on., and on, and finally gone,
Am I responsible for where I was born?
Could hide an anger, could hide am sad,
Of course, am not an angel, I can be bad,

Silence, is all that I hear loud and clear,
Far away from the ones that love, dear,
So many around, yet feeling so lonely,
Prince by name, and just by name only,

It cost more than my time and money,
And everything ends like so very funny,
What should I do, just pretend am okay?
It was all thorny roses, one big bouquet,

No one to blame , not even one of me,
No one even wants me, to what I can be,
Well, that’s for later, but here is more,
They said, I’m sorry, showed me the door,

Are rejections good, or they are all bad,
Do they at all test you, or make you glad,
Realized its not good to be just too nice,
Bridegrooms chosen over one roll of dice,

Why would you even ask for reasons, why ?
Why would you even whimper and do sigh?
If it is a No, then why would you even wait,
All that remained of you, was a strong bait,

Don’t be yourself, no one ever even likes,
Everyone adores the ones, that often lies,
Never be the first one, to accept a failure,
No one ever appreciate a personal allure,

Well, I gotta go and live and let live, them,
Nothing to blame you, princess, My mam,
People chose what they want, they love,
Can’t force a horse to drink, let alone a cow,

More said than done, than happiness lived,
Never exhibited signs of being contrived,
Things seemed like a dream, just so very true,
Was there nothing, between me and you ?

Just another... Sunday !

It doesn’t make a difference to me and you,
Why at all worry about some age old Bapu ?
I have my everyday life to live and survive,
I am glad, I have enough money, I am alive,

I have to go on a date today with some dame,
Does it matter, even if I dont't know her name,
I have to give a party to my friends in a while,
And , I don’t mind driving a five hundred mile,

You and I, really don’t have anything to do,
And of course, we just don’t have to be true,
I see her, the posters, all of Ms. Sushmita Sen,
Do I even know this person, Mr. Amartya Sen ?

The country, so big, yet so small deep within,
Hardly, I raise my voice for the right from chin,
Nehru, Ambedkar, Sashtri, exist only in papers,
All those struggles gone out, like liquid vapors,

Of course, it is not your fault, my young man,
You have much trouble with FB and your LAN,
I have to go and listen to the inspirational song,
On You Tube, Emails, FB, Twitter, all day long,

Forward them to a few, and forget tomorrow,
Of course, my heart is just too light and hollow,
Why will I ever cast my vote, such a long queue,
I’ve to make a movie reservation now, for two,

Abdul Kalam, was just another a Nth president,
Why even worry about the tortures underwent,
Many died, so many killed, for so many that lived,
For all that was restored for me, and just revived,

Mahatma recollected by me, only 3 times a year,
30th Jan, 2nd October and 15th August, I am clear,
On Sony Max, Star, Doordharshan and the others,
Who cares about our fellow sisters and brothers,

But, all that I care is that the chocolate they give,
And next day, I forget all and I have to go and live,
The Flag hoisted and brought down, by the evening,
The National Anthem! I’m shy, Can I hum, not sing ?

Enrique, Himesh, Jai Ho, Rehman, I can sing loud,
And I love all of Trey, Ne-Yo, Rangeela, and Daud,
What is my National Game ? My National Flower ?
Oh, come on, ask me about, Katrina Kaif’s ex-lover !

What is this pledge? I cannot even utter four lines,
Will tell you every dialogue from the movie, SIGNS,
India is a Sovereign, Socialist, Democratic, Republic,
Would've known if Big B had announced it to public !

I have to go lament about policies, and the politics,
I have to be out of my work place, right after six,
Over beer, talk, not be the one to bring the change,
Well, of course, for me it’s out of scope and range,

Oh ! I am so sorry, even you have to go now, right ?
Start discussing about latest movies and some fight ?
You will have lots to discuss, over one cup of coffee,
Your plans for lunch in the airport road, in The Sufi !

All those lives in sorrow gone, for your life today,
Live your life young man and women, all fun, play,
It’s neither my job nor my passion, to give you clue,
Be the judge, see if it matters between me and you !

New York....

A reply on admiration for Miss Alicia Keys,
I would definitely get down on my knees,
For her song on all the Streets of New York,
That will bring into you, joy withl full torque,

Every muscle inside will hurt, yet you’ll dance,
To this inspiring song, will draw to her all fans,
As you close your eyes, listen to these lines,
Even it will seem tasteless, the oldest wines,

This song that is sung, all from deep within,
Not one bit of a sound or sadness of violin,
The piano rolls and kisses every little finger,
Of Alicia Keys, that makes the great singer,

The music sings to her song, trouncing in shy,
This bright lit city, the Grand Central over sky,
If you can make it here, you can do that all,
New York rocks in summer, winter, and fall,

The streets of New York, will make you feel,
Brand new, she says and locks heart, to seal,
The poorer of the poor, The richer of the rich,
The music and the beats, will raise your pitch,

Why would anyone even buy a round trip ticket,
You get all fame, money, women, wine and beer,
You can live lavish, you can be good, you could,
No one says, hei, do it this way, yes, you should,

This is New York, this city is what is its made of,
It makes you cry, whimper, go crazy and laugh,
The last place on earth, you would want to be,
The best and the worst of things, you can see,

When it rains here, it washes off all of your sins,
The strongest that survives here, lives and wins,
This is a concrete jungle, she says and she prays,
This city is for all those, who spend all their days,

Playing around, jumping over traffic and cars,
Nights, on all clubs, pubs, restaurants and bars,
The city know who you are, and what you are,
You are never far away from Heaven, no so far,

This is New York, city, the beginning and end,
You will love it here, beg, borrow, bet, spend,
It changes your whole perception, as you walk,
It even changes the way, you walk, what you talk,

You would love this city, for that is nice and bad,
You will meet everyone here, happy and not glad,
This is New York, this city will bring the brand new,
From inside you, the city is all for me and …. You !

The visit...

Few moments there are, in everyone’s life,
That is part of the search for one nice wife,
Not so very easy, and just not too greasy,
You cannot be that glib, yet not so fleecy,

You have to be yourself, in just that time,
Still you can’t afford to commit one crime,
You have to be so nice, yet be just so true,
Be just right, tell them, you have the clue,

Be one among them, yet try to be yourself,
Not a book helps, that sleeps in bookshelf,
Not one school text, teaches you all these,
You’ve to enjoy it all, even if they do tease,

You’ve to be so formal, yet be so normal,
Slight move of yours can turn, abnormal,
Don’t try smart words, and try to impress,
Be their kin, Hei, you aren’t playing chess!

Every first move, is fine and is accepted,
Every word you say, is finely intercepted,
As you keep moving, to all those players,
Oh come on, T’s not the time for prayers,

Oh, yes, I did have some nice time and fun,
‘Cause I wasn’t’ facing one fully loaded gun,
I did dodge some bullets, along that way,
That started from dawn, close to midday,

But, I liked be part of every question round,
It was so nice, to have everyone sit around,
The Queen of the hearts, simply demanded
But, all day, in the plane, was just stranded,

Celebrity life it was, all that I could exploit,
Breakfast in New York city, Lunch in Detroit,
Coffee in Milwaukee, and dinner in Chicago,
I was glad, it wasn’t winter, full of the snow !

Not one moment, I just felt tired, after that trip,
When you have people, with a smile on their lip,
Three stayed, all along, besides my request note,
Well, how should I thank them, gimme a quote !

Without a notice, two long days just passed soon,
On a Vacation, but my cell phone rang after noon,
Work ? Did I not tell them, not to give me a ring ?
I am sure, they traced me through google or bing!

Some smiles and handshakes, now at the airport,
Now to my desktop , for post production support,
I hope they liked me, and I hope I did not overdo,
I did all, just for a nice start, between me and you !